yes..almost d end of d wk. finally d wkends r here...tml. i've met all of my tutors except for my om tutor. meeting him tml. hope he is nice. so far all our tutors r okie. haha. which is gd..so we will nt haf a hard time during dis sem.
at first tot, i tot our ief was gg to b really fierce coz we were late for her first tutorial. gee..it's my fault. i was late and d gurls ended up waiting for me. felt so guilty after dat. d tutor looked lyk a guy so much..her hair, dressing style and so on and so forth. haha. so mean ritex..criticise d tutor. but after dat she was fine..lyk luffing thruout d tutorial. guess she's alright afterall. den our mkting tutor was a real bored. wad can u except for a 50+ man. but i rather he is lyk dis den strict. or else sch is gg to b lyk hell. i dun wan my tutors to b lyk my previous sem de bmgt tutor. anyhow dat tutor sux alot. damn bossy and stuff. argh..dun tok abt d past le.
todae's jap lesson was pretty interesting too. learnt quite a number of stuff. but we haf a writing test nxt wk. argh! nid to noe how to rite a letter to d tutor. sianx! dis wk sure busy one. nid to memorise certain stuff. hope i can fare well for it! my only hope dis sem.
zzz..so freaking hot now. d weather has been really humid dis few daes..so hot, even after bathing i sweat. den my air-con dun seem to b as cold as b4. tink it's gg to 'burst' one dae. wah...cannot tahan without my air-con. it's a necessity to me now!
gee..i haven blog for so long. when was d last time i blog...21st april? dat's lyk more den a mth ago. omg! been playing games since sch end last sem..so din really blog. quite alot of tings happened but i juz dun haf d 'inspiration' to rite 'em down. guess everyone's feeling d same coz most of my clsmates either close their sites or leave it hanging thr..untouched. wad a weird feeling ritex..we were so enthu dat time when we first started out..everyone was toking abt d blogskins and d stuffs dat we wrote blah blah blah.
anyhow sch has alr started and yes, i'm a yr 2 student now. gee..time really flies. i was still a freshie abt a yr ago and now..i'm a senior. haha. d modules in dis sem aint dat interesting except for marketing mayb. mayb i'm wrong. wad i noe is OM is d same as BMGT & OB. dat sux big time. first lect was alr a headache..n we zao halfwae thru. hehe. so bad ritex..1st lect den went off halfwae alr. wonder wad will happen thruout d whole sem. cant blame us though..d lect's really boring. i also fell aslp inside..and u noe me, no matter how tired i am i wont slp in lect one. but dat time was really terrible..i could close my eyes n juz slp thr. so u can juz imagine how BORING d lect was. to make tings worse d lecturer was damn loh soh..so long-winded. one slide he tok for 5-10 mins. as wad he said..ELABORATE. *rolls eyes* dat's so ridiculous..wonder how he manage to sae so much frm only a few sentences in d slide. damn..tink he 'trained' himself for dat ar.
den thr's our AAA lecturer hu happens to b our tutor AND our advisor. how pathetic is dat. my first impression of her is she is strict. she made everyone shut up during her lect. haha. hopefully she is lyk mrs ng..strict in lect but nice during tutorial. guess d truth will reveal itself tml whr i will attend her tutorial cls. *prays hard* hopefully everyting turns out right. hehe.
but d worst of d worst is our IEF lecturer. she sux big time..i mean really sux. she is damn sarcastic and..i really duno wad to sae abt her. tink my ief common test is bound to fail for sure. 100% + guarantee + chop. u could juz imagine how horrifying she is. absolutely horrendous. d qns dat she told us dat came out during previous exam..i was totally stunned. i dun even understand wad she was saying. tink i'm gg to stare into space when i get d paper. now i finally understand y she said only 10% of d cohort pass their common test paper. my first meeting wif her was alr terrifying enuff. she made it sound as if it's abosolutely impossible for us to pass..okie, maybe nt impossible. but really really difficult to pass. coz we nid to read d 'txtbk' in order to do d paper. y i put d commas for d word...coz dat bk aint exactly a txtbk. it's more lyk a reference bk to me. i was so bored after reading 1 pg of d bk..i repeat juz ONE pg of d bk. and i'm suppose to read up to chp 5 now. damn it! how on earth am i gg to do dat. i juz hope dat i can get a D grade for dis module and i'm b thanking god. she said she lurve giving surprises. her surprises are setting qns dat we haf nv seen b4 or she nv taught us. so she expects us to read up on our own, b attentive during lect blah blah blah.
dis is d beginning of my nightmare. wad more wif programs coming up. zzz..i hate it! when am i gg to b free frm dis? *sigh*
i used to condemn guys saying dey're dumb and stuff...i'm starting to wonder whether i'm d dumb one. i'm such a bitch. so stupid so dumb. i hate myself. I HATE MYSELF!!! tink i'm better off being a lesbian ar...can understand gurls better.
Each Truth Is Just A Scrim Across The Darkness
We cannot see what most we'd like to know.
We drive among sheer cliffs in pale moonlight
Unsure of where we are or where to go.
When we allow our heads to make our choices,
We lose because of what we cannot see.
When we give way and let desire take us,
We lose because we want what cannot be.
We inch along the dream-lit rocky ridges
Knowing always, always we must lose.
The end for all is darkness everlasting,
And so it matters less which road we choose.
What matters is the beauty of sheer being;
The gifts we have and those we will become;
The ecstasy of loving so completely
That we ourselves are more than minds can plumb.
Love well and know that love must end in pain.
Be a fool and pay the unmarked price.
Be generous of self, and passion gain:
One who never loses, loses twice.
finally..a new blogskin. haha. and a new song too. tink jas has put it in her blog b4 but nvm..i lyk dis song alot too. tink u guys hear d natalie - going crazy until sianx le. haha.
anywae i haf nth to blog nowadaes...suddenly no inspiration. haf alot of tings in mind but dun feel lyk putting it down. haix. guess i'm back to my usual self again..keeping everyting to myself which isnt such a bad idea at times.
oh yar..in my previous blog i said sth abt a gurls pix ritex. i showed it to esther n wendy le. esther said she saw d pix frm a forum b4...heck larx. nt exactly my problem.
okies. i'll stop here for d time being. ciao!~
P.S: me change d song le. tink dis song - Xtina [I turn to you] is more appropriate for me bah.
grrr...so fed up now. cant play rose now. keep lagging and lagging. took so long to load dis page too. wth. den d toolbar din appear. stupid one!
anywae i haven blog for a while le ritex. haha. been playing rose d past few daes..keke..chiong until siao but lvl still low. =[ anywae i finally met S online. haha. ytd and d dae b4. so long nv see him le. tot he avoiding me coz i everytime disturb him one. haha. but he beri nice one. hehe.
heard frm him ytd dat he might b posted to USA for 2 yrs leh. 2 yrs lorx. if he's gone den i haf no one to turn to when i haf problem le. haix. nvm larx..cannot always rely on ppl one mus b more independent.
oh yar..nxt time i will attached a pix of a gurl. u guys help me judge. see whether she looks lyk a singaporean/jap. haha..d person sae she has taiwanese blood in her. duno larx. i will attached it nxt time coz now my toolbar aint working.
okie larx..stop here le. such a short blog. hehe. but also gt nth to sae so...ciao!~
haPPie aPRiL foOL's dAe!!!!~
lolx. nth much happen todae. act i slp at 2+ dis morning. keke. so late horx. coz playing rose mah..den afterdat check out some blogskins. cant slp larx.
juz now...dis morning i mean...nonono..dis afternoon, haha..blur me...he pm me in game. was kinda surprise. tot he decided to leave me alone le. okie larx..den i spoke to him. he was quite happie dat i aint avoiding him le. coz ytd i told him dis, "dun make empty promises dat u noe u cant keep". guess everyting is okie bah..almost. except dat i dun feel d same wae towards him le. juz...i duno...i really haf no idea how i feel or wan now. we'll see how it goes lorx.
oh ya..b4 i left juz now he asked me sth. he asked me abt last nitex. he suspects dat thr's sth gg on between me and S. cant let him noe dat i'm gg close to S ritex. S is sorta lyk my spy. haix. nt sure larx. but i noe he consults S for his prob too. S told me de. dat's y i gt to noe some stuffs. stuffs dat he would nv sae to me. and dat's how i found out abt his mysterious frenz too. if S hadnt promise me dat he would tell me, i probably still b a dumbo. kept in d dark.
and S...wad to sae abt S. S can relate to me, understands me, make me luff and cry. ha. he seems to haf such an effect on me. no matter how angry i am i'll feel better after toking to him. it's lyk all my anger has vanished. but i noe dat nth's gona happen between us coz he probably treats me lyk a young, naive gurl - someone hu pours her woes to. but i cant trust him 100%. i'm nt sure whether S leak anyting to HIM. coz S tells me wad HE told him sometimes..so..i'm nt sure whether S told HIM anyting nt.
okie larx...enuff abt them for a moment. tink i'm gg to change my blogskin often. lyk 2 a mth? nt too sure. i found quite a number of skins alr. so shud haf np if i decide to change d skin often.
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