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wOot!!!~ finally complete my exams. hehe. so happie..words cant even describe how i feel ritex now. it's lyk i haf no burden now..no more fretting about examx for d time being.

as promise, i said dat i will change d blogskin ritex..keke..wad do u guys tink of dis? haha..me bitch. keke. juz tot dat dis layout looks kinda cool.

anywae alot of tings had happen dis few daes and i only learnt d truth frm him ytd. act S promised me dat he would tell me ytd..in d end, he asked me to ask frm HIM myself. i was tinking dat if i nv bother to ask him..he probably aint gona tell me abt d mysterious frenz. ha..wonder whether dis is d so-call EXCITING news he was gg to tell me. u haf no idea how EXCITING it was? *rolls eyes* guys r juz a bunch of jerks. i'm starting to agree wif pink [refer to tb04 gurls blog]..starting to detest guys more and more. jerkx. bastards. asshole.

he tink dat juz a simple sorrie and everyting can and will b forgotten. and we'll juz go back to d wae we used to b. ha. he's so damn naive. wad wif all those promises dat he wont hurt me again...juz a bunch of lies. i hate it when ppl lie to me. i hate it even more when ppl make empty promises dat dey noe dey cant keep.

he still said dat he really hope to noe me better...how on earth is he gg to do dat when we no longer tok. and he expect me to forgive him. he wasnt even sincere abt dat..he had to get S to pass d msg to me. duno wth he tinking. dumb. juz plain dumb. he says he nids time..lyk i dun. i wasnt even rushing him into a relationship...blurdy hell [pardon me for my use of language]. he said alot of bullshit ytd. turned out he had been asking S for help too, consulting him.

frm wad i heard frm S, he's confused ritex now. haix..i really duno wad to do. S tot dat i'll b upset or mad at HIM..but i assured him dat i was okie. in fact, i dun feel anyting when HE told me d truth..i was totally numb...no feeling at all. weird ar. mayb coz i was feeling really tired ytd..and my mind is juz block. after S left..i started tinking and tinking...and ended crying. diaox. lyk again ritex. i hate myself..i told S dat i was okie...and i end up crying.

HE probably doesnt noe dat i've shed alot of tears for me. he probably doesnt care either. i admitted dat i was kinda bad towards him b4..lyk getting angry wif him over small matters. but i did dat becoz i wanted his attention..i realised dat i was so dumb. dis aint gona get him to notice me..he probably tinks i'm a petty gurl. after dat incident dat dae, i decided to treat him nicer..but den dis haf to happen.

i really duno wad to do now. really confused. i doubt tings r gg to b d same again. guess i'm fated to b single..haha..it's nt dat bad though. as long as i haf my frenz wif me..besides i kinda enjoy d carefree life i haf now. no obligations and stuff. juz b me.

Perpetuity// was brought down on 2:18 PM//

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