i used to condemn guys saying dey're dumb and stuff...i'm starting to wonder whether i'm d dumb one. i'm such a bitch. so stupid so dumb. i hate myself. I HATE MYSELF!!! tink i'm better off being a lesbian ar...can understand gurls better.
Each Truth Is Just A Scrim Across The Darkness
We cannot see what most we'd like to know.
We drive among sheer cliffs in pale moonlight
Unsure of where we are or where to go.
When we allow our heads to make our choices,
We lose because of what we cannot see.
When we give way and let desire take us,
We lose because we want what cannot be.
We inch along the dream-lit rocky ridges
Knowing always, always we must lose.
The end for all is darkness everlasting,
And so it matters less which road we choose.
What matters is the beauty of sheer being;
The gifts we have and those we will become;
The ecstasy of loving so completely
That we ourselves are more than minds can plumb.
Love well and know that love must end in pain.
Be a fool and pay the unmarked price.
Be generous of self, and passion gain:
One who never loses, loses twice.
finally..a new blogskin. haha. and a new song too. tink jas has put it in her blog b4 but nvm..i lyk dis song alot too. tink u guys hear d natalie - going crazy until sianx le. haha.
anywae i haf nth to blog nowadaes...suddenly no inspiration. haf alot of tings in mind but dun feel lyk putting it down. haix. guess i'm back to my usual self again..keeping everyting to myself which isnt such a bad idea at times.
oh yar..in my previous blog i said sth abt a gurls pix ritex. i showed it to esther n wendy le. esther said she saw d pix frm a forum b4...heck larx. nt exactly my problem.
okies. i'll stop here for d time being. ciao!~
P.S: me change d song le. tink dis song - Xtina [I turn to you] is more appropriate for me bah.
grrr...so fed up now. cant play rose now. keep lagging and lagging. took so long to load dis page too. wth. den d toolbar din appear. stupid one!
anywae i haven blog for a while le ritex. haha. been playing rose d past few daes..keke..chiong until siao but lvl still low. =[ anywae i finally met S online. haha. ytd and d dae b4. so long nv see him le. tot he avoiding me coz i everytime disturb him one. haha. but he beri nice one. hehe.
heard frm him ytd dat he might b posted to USA for 2 yrs leh. 2 yrs lorx. if he's gone den i haf no one to turn to when i haf problem le. haix. nvm larx..cannot always rely on ppl one mus b more independent.
oh yar..nxt time i will attached a pix of a gurl. u guys help me judge. see whether she looks lyk a singaporean/jap. haha..d person sae she has taiwanese blood in her. duno larx. i will attached it nxt time coz now my toolbar aint working.
okie larx..stop here le. such a short blog. hehe. but also gt nth to sae so...ciao!~
haPPie aPRiL foOL's dAe!!!!~
lolx. nth much happen todae. act i slp at 2+ dis morning. keke. so late horx. coz playing rose mah..den afterdat check out some blogskins. cant slp larx.
juz now...dis morning i mean...nonono..dis afternoon, haha..blur me...he pm me in game. was kinda surprise. tot he decided to leave me alone le. okie larx..den i spoke to him. he was quite happie dat i aint avoiding him le. coz ytd i told him dis, "dun make empty promises dat u noe u cant keep". guess everyting is okie bah..almost. except dat i dun feel d same wae towards him le. juz...i duno...i really haf no idea how i feel or wan now. we'll see how it goes lorx.
oh ya..b4 i left juz now he asked me sth. he asked me abt last nitex. he suspects dat thr's sth gg on between me and S. cant let him noe dat i'm gg close to S ritex. S is sorta lyk my spy. haix. nt sure larx. but i noe he consults S for his prob too. S told me de. dat's y i gt to noe some stuffs. stuffs dat he would nv sae to me. and dat's how i found out abt his mysterious frenz too. if S hadnt promise me dat he would tell me, i probably still b a dumbo. kept in d dark.
and S...wad to sae abt S. S can relate to me, understands me, make me luff and cry. ha. he seems to haf such an effect on me. no matter how angry i am i'll feel better after toking to him. it's lyk all my anger has vanished. but i noe dat nth's gona happen between us coz he probably treats me lyk a young, naive gurl - someone hu pours her woes to. but i cant trust him 100%. i'm nt sure whether S leak anyting to HIM. coz S tells me wad HE told him sometimes..so..i'm nt sure whether S told HIM anyting nt.
okie larx...enuff abt them for a moment. tink i'm gg to change my blogskin often. lyk 2 a mth? nt too sure. i found quite a number of skins alr. so shud haf np if i decide to change d skin often.
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